Life is changing...I'd love to say Veni Vidi Vici...but I'm simply not there yet. I see the light at the end of the tunnel. Someone told me this week that I should be happy with the decisions I've made. If I've made a decision be proud and celebrate it. I'm sure he said it will all the best intentions. Here is the thing. How are you happy with a life changing decision that you know may hurt others you love? Celebrate in the midst of other's pain? Selfish...yes maybe, Hold a grudge when hurt...of course that's me, Often Confused...possibly that too. Rigid, Obstinate and Slow, overthinker...yes yes and YES. One thing I'm not is mean spirited, and I believe that celebrating my happiness in the midst of the pain of my love ones straddles that fence.
I just don't feel it. I AM SATISFIED, happy, settled in my thoughts and decisions but I choose to show it in a different way at this time. There is a time and a place for everything. I do have times when my shoulders relax and my tension lessons. "Happiness...I can help you with that. Peace is something you have to find within yourself".
"In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life. It goes on." Robert Frost
So in the midst of it all I've had some little ups and downs this week as I was saying before I strayed off. The boys are home on spring break. It felt so WONDERFUL not to get up and drive ANYONE to school this morning. I actually even took a Sominex last night to help me sleep a little harder. It was really nice. The downside is I've been sick this week with a constant migraine and today is the first day I've actually felt pretty good and not felt little tapping mice in my head. My "auntie" decided to come visit me a WHOLE week early too. What freak? Wierd thing is she hung out for about a day in a half and then just disappeared. WHATEVER! The little witch left me in the fetal position for most of last night so I'm glad she took off! Upside - spring cleaning leaves me with a empty closet rid of a bunch of crap I don't need. I plan to do all the boys rooms too. I was shocked to see that much room in my closet but it felt sooo good. I got all my shorts ready but I haven't seen a drop of sun yet. It's been raining for 3 days straight.
Lastly sending out a few prayers to Sandra Cantu's family. After a week the entire town searching her young body was found Monday. What a tragedy. Heaven has a new angel. Blessings to her family.
Also to my dear friend and former co-worker Elva Duclose. Cancer finally took over and she gave up her fight this morning. I love you Elva. You were a true gem. Blessings to all. Live it to the fullest because it is not guaranteed.