The People In My Life

I just wanted to say first that people sometimes should take a step back... stop what you are doing... and look at your life... where you've been, where you are, and where you're going... and then take a closer look and acknowledge the people that have helped you along the way... people that have helped you become who you are now...People that have wronged you but have somehow made you stronger.People that have been there for you only for a season never to see them again... but they were still there at some point.People that are distant but always watching you or praying for you.People that love you dearly and sacrifice for you.People that have changed your whole world.People that stick with you even when you have done things that would make an ordinary person want to leave.People that push you to grow, push you to become a better you, not just better.People that have broken your heart.I'm taking a second to acknowledge those people... thank you... thank you for everything, despite the wrong things i may have done to, despite whether or not i have hurt you or you have hurt me, even if i don't know you too well but you have impacted my life in some way... people i don't get along with, but have helped me understand how to love others better... thank you... thank you to those who have educated me, enlightened me, encouraged me... thank you to those who have loved me and shown me that love... life is all the more better because of you all... and you continue to inspire me !!!

Little This, Little That

1) I am terribly afraid of failing. Not in the everyday sense of making a mistake, but not becoming the person that i have the potential to become.
2) I am now living in the crazy state of mind right now. Can't explain

3) I am in love with a nice hot bath of bubbles

4) I love massages
5) I hate when there is a whole empty row and someone I don't know comes and sits RIGHT next to me or really close..ugh! Especially the treadmill at the gym
6) too much contemplating

7) I detest people with no common sense!!! No really, i do!!! :-)
8) I'm use to love roller coasters as a kid. Now they terrify me

9) I adore hanging out in the house in my pjs and no shoes

10) I hate catching myself laughing outloud

11) I believe I'm much more complicated than anyone will ever understand.

12) I love to read....looking for my next novel
13) Despise all romance novels....don't hate me people :-)
14) I love new and interesting words....

15) I wish I was more sensitive to other's feelings
16) I REALLY don't like pets

17) I love talk radio

18) I can palm two men's basketballs

19) I hate encountering new situations (new school, new job, new friends, new places)
20) I hate fried okra

21) I love a great smile
22) I hate double standards
23) I absolutely HATE shopping, especially on black Friday
24) I green is my favorite color

25) At my core, i am the same person i was when i was 10:-)...uncontent, serious, curious and nosey
26) I pride myself on being different and slightly peculiar
27) I despise public restrooms and I'll hold it all day to keep from using them.
28)I hate when someone says something funny and people laugh and then they keep saying it.
29) I don't really like other people's small children...I know it's mean

30) I love great sermons

31) simplicity rules
32) I believe the eyes are the windows to the soul!!!
33) I adore music

34) Lover of forensic shows
35) Raisin bran is my favorite

36) I was such an ugly duckling in high school and so skinny that my socks didn't fit my ankles

37) I love to travel
38) I am afraid of cats

39) I'm a product junkie and would love to own a Walgreens or Rite-Aid
40) I would to throw snowballs before actually skiing
41) I enjoy camping...in my bedroom.
42) I am afraid of the dark and that's why I sleep with my tv on

43) Disrespectful and aggressive individuals annoy me
44) I'm way to competitive for my own good.
45) I hate people using my stuff (lotion, soap, tweezers, food).
46) I love a great deal on a nice pair of shoes

47) I don't have any tattoos
48) No piercings except my earholes
49) I HATE being told to do something instead of asked

50) I wish my butt was bigger and my bra size was two sizes up. (Happy 50 items)

Turkey Time

I must admit that I don’t understand the motivation and rationale behind Thanksgiving. Of course, I understand that Thanksgiving is a day set aside so that we give thanks for the blessings of the past year, but I don’t really get the traditions behind the day. Indians and Pilgrims, blah blah blah.

So we give thanks by overindulging, by stuffing ourselves until we are utterly miserable? I have often questioned the rationale of showing thanks by engaging in a day of gluttony. Just doesn’t really seem to make sense. Wouldn’t it make more sense to show our thanks by spending a day of fasting and prayful reflection?

But who am I to go against this Hallmark holiday that kicks off the Christmas season? Who am I to ponder too much on good food? So I will spend Thanksgiving indulging myself in direct proportion to those blessings that have come my way this past year, and those blessings have been many. In other words, I am going to make a pig of myself again this year, and by late this afternoon, I will be cursing myself for overdoing it once again. By the way, I was extremely annoyed when I called to find out 24 hour fitness would close at 2pm. What exactly does 24 HOUR FITNESS MEAN?

But in all seriousness, I have plenty this year to be thankful for. I am thankful for having been blessed with beautiful family. I am thankful that we finish this year with a safe place to lay our heads at night and food on the table; there are so many others who may not be able to say the same.

I am thankful for the friends that have come into my life. I am thankful for the opportunities I have been given this year as well as the opportunities that are to come. I am thankful for a future that looks bright. I am so thankful that we are not going through the same injuries this Thanksgiving as last when I had a 4 year old with a broken femur and a 14 year old with a broken fibula and tibula.

I am so thankful my mommy and daddy continue to be healthy and happy and my sisters are well too. I am even thankful for each trial that makes me stronger and a voice if even through my blog that allows me to voice my feelings at times.
I am thankful for all those who continue to pray for me and my family and even when I am too foolish (or too arrogant) to pray for myself.

If I were too continue with those things I am thankful for, this list would continue ad naseum; however, there is one more thing that I feel I must give thanks for. I am thankful that I continue to have readers to come over and read my pitiful commentaries and occasionally leave a comment or two. Thank you and I wish you and your family and love ones a very Happy Thanksgiving.


In the Pit of My Belly

So much craziness going on right now. I learned this weekend that I'm not insane. I'm every bit the overprotective mother I ever wanted to be. Found out some information that has recently changed the life of one of my children's friends forever. I feel sad for them. I don't care what ANYBODY says YES, MY CHILDREN ARE SHELTERED, Yes I'm overbearing, protective, too sensitive and too involved in my children's lives. SO WHAT. Kiss my butt.

I'm staying this way.

I feel like sending my favorite song but instead of posting the video I'll post the lyrics.

I may be just a foolish dreamer
But I don't care
'Cause I know my happiness is waiting out there somewhere
I'm searching for that silver lining
Horizons that I've never seen
Oh I'd like to take just a moment and dream my dream
Dream my dream
Zoom I'd like to fly far away from here
Where my mind is fresh and clear
And I'd find the love that I long to see
Where everybody can be what they wanna be
I'd like the greet the sun each morning



I can feel it come in the air tonight, oh Lord - Phil Collins

Well, it's that time. Been waiting all season for it to get here and now is the time. Playoffs are here and in the SJS Saint Mary's High School is rated #1 baby! Come get it!

Checked to make sure my boys were focused on the task at hand and grades look good. Next checked their myspace pages for inspection and I found this on Twin A's page...

love it!

On Twin B's page I found something equally as good. Love a multi-talented receiver -

Twin B has gone on to basketball. The last JV football game ended Friday night. Saturday morning he was at basketball practice at 8am. This was the last football reminent I found on his page as he's remade it to fit the upcoming basketball season. Still love that round ball! Can't wait for the season to begin but right now I got OUR (YES I SAID OUR)...okay okay, (THEIR) sights set on a run for the state title. It's all for the parents anyway right?

Be back with an update next Friday peeps!


Good Morning Heartache

I often refer to my favorite movie "Lady Sings the Blues" because Billy Holiday seemed such a woman on the edge of greatness who could never get over her desire to belong, feel true love or appreciation and in the end her sadness was her demise.

Today, I feel wounded. Somedays life seems hard. I couldn't think of a more perfect song.

Hoping tomorrow is better.


Honest Scrap Award

The Honest Mommy nominated me with this award and I'd love to share it with those important blogs that I read daily.

Thank you for the "Honest Scrap Award". When I first decided to make this blog I was a bit afraid, since it has been so hard for me over the years to share intimate parts of my life, experiences, and things that I'm going through as I speak. I feel that by sharing I reveil myself, release tension and allow people to know the real me.

Thank you so much to everyone who takes the time to read my blog, it really means a lot to me that you enjoy my work, I love comments but it's okay if you read privately too. Hugs to all

The honest scrap award rules:

1. Present the award to seven bloggers whose blogs you find brilliant in content and/or design or who have encouraged you.
2. Tell those seven people that you have given them the Honest Scrap Award.
3. Share ten honest things about yourself.

I Nominate :
A Place of Comfort
Bitching Wives Club
The Nubian Epistle
Live Out Loud Then Write About It
In Dew Season
Sam I Am Land
The Way It Is

I love following all of your blogs; they inspire me with my work, and show that regardless of how diverse we all are, we are always connected by words and our love for writing and sharing.

10 honest things about me

1. I love Jesus
2. I adore my family
3. I am connected at the hip to my blackberry
4. I eat yogurt every single morning
5. I hate coffee and the smell of cigarettes
6. I am a procrastinator but the finished project always looks like weeks of work
7. I love folding fresh towels out of the dryer
8. I'd rather not work out then work out with my ipod
9. I read the newspaper every morning followed by checking my favorite sports forums
10.Working on me is a daily process. Honestly

The Evolution of Beauty

“Character contributes to beauty. It fortifies a woman as her youth fades. A mode of conduct, a standard of courage, discipline, fortitude, and integrity can do a great deal to make a woman beautiful.”- Anonymous

Little girls everywhere need to see this.

Some Stuff

We all have baggage; it's a pre-requisite for life. Writing is what keeps me sane and sustains my soul, never could I leave it. I don't want to let it go.

I write fragmented pieces of memories, emotions, fears and dreams. I desire to share with those important to me, and I'm eager to read my pieces and share a more intimate side of myself.


Saints Are ROLLIN!

Yes, I am every bit the daddy's girl you thought I was. I love everything my daddy loves, including THE SAINTS! My daddy has been a Saints fan since their inception. When the Saints were losing he still repped his team with pride. His a Louisiana Boy! (RUSTON - WHA WHATTTT!) Whatcha know 'bout that GSU BABBBBBBY!

Anyway, the Saints are rollin! Only time we..YES now it's we cause like I said "I roll wit' my daddy" was in 1991 in the franchise's 43 year history.

Let's keeping it going guys!


Football Pics

The push for the holidays has begun. I'm getting nervous. Things are getting tight and the economy is starting to squeeze just a little...well a lot.
I'm having fun watching the boys week to week play their football games and I still continue to push them in the classroom. Sometimes it's a struggle. Got some new football pics. Thought I'd share!

Slightly Rambling

Just some words...I love that this is my blog, and nothing has to make since. I don't really mind how many followers I have, if it's read at all, if no one but me clicks. Sometimes my blog, my ipod and some arm curls are what keeps me sane.

Funny been using that "sane" word a lot lately.

Just words