Just Pondering

Just some things I've been thinking about as my thoughts have been drifting the last couple of days. It's hard to write when my mind is so jumbled so I'm doing my best to be in the very best spirits I can because I know everyday is a blessing. I love this, I've learned email so I decided to leave the ones that I've LEARNED from.

I've learned to believe people when they show you who they are the first time.

I've learned that you can tell a lot about a person by the way he/she handles these three things: a rainy day, a flat tire, and a rejected credit card.

I've learned that regardless of your relationship with your parents you'll miss them when they're gone from your life. (or move away to Texas)

I've learned that you shouldn't go through life with a catcher's mitt on both hands. You need to be able to throw something back sometimes.

I've learned that every day you should reach out and touch someone. People love a warm hug, or just a friendly pat on the back.

I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.

I've learned that either you control your attitude or it controls you.

I've learned that true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance.

I've learned...
that just because someone doesn't love you
the way you want them to doesn't mean they
don't love you with all they have.

I've learned...
that no matter how good a friend is, they're
going to hurt you every once in a while and
you must forgive them for that.

I've learned...
that it isn't always enough to be forgiven by
others, Sometimes you have to learn to forgive
yourself.

I've learned that just because two people argue, it doesn't mean they don't love each other. And just because they don't argue, it doesn't mean they do.

I've learned that two people can look at the exact same thing and see something totally different.

I've leaned that I still have a lot to learn.

Terrorism Hits Home...Fa Real!

Excuse me as I have a little minor meltdown here at home alone. I'm glad nobody is here actually. I was living in my own little bubble of a world. Decided to turn on the news and get in the latest on "Jaycee, Obama and some sports". Next thing I knew was more discussions on all of the terrorists be arrested and then there it was. The most perfect skyscraper in Dallas. The one my daddy had shown me on my visit to Texas and said "there is where I work at". It was on the news!.


Excuse me while I have a minor panic attack again as I look at the picture. Yes, I'm probably a drama queen but you have to realize I love my daddy more than anything in the world. Nothing more in this world can send me into an instant depression more than the thought of losing him. Well, almost nothing. The thought of losing my mommy sends me into heaving convulsions on the floor so I won't go there.

Anyway, I can tell it's time to make a trip to Dallas. I miss them more than ever now. I can't talk terrorism or how I feel about it. I'm just glad my God said it's not time for my daddy to come home yet.

Thank you Jesus.

M.I.A

(Wondertwin power...ACTIVATE) (#18 Twin B, #5 Twin A)

Ripping any running. Such is life lately. Haven't had much time to blog...but I miss all of my readers even if somedays the only one reading is me.

It's 96 degrees outside right now and just sticking nasty hot. I don't want winter just yet but I'd love for it to be a little cooler, maybe just 10 degrees color.

School is crazy right now between all these tests and homework and projects. Work life, not to mention football has been going, going and going. Since it's too hot to be in the writing mood I thought I'd share some pictures of the last few weeks. Enjoy. MUUUUAAAAHHHHH!!!!



(My little daffodil picker got a tackle this week, next year he'll be in beast-mode)



(my handsome little sophs...lub them boys)


(Cayden started school, he's so happy...AND SO IS MOMMY!)

Happy Birthday

To the love of my life. The one who puts the twinkle in my eye and spins my world. I love you!

Wacky Weekend

Not sure what was in the water this weekend but my people where all passing the red cup too much!

First Michael Jordan just makes some "absurd" remarks during his Hall of Fame induction speech to remind us that he is...Michael Jordan. I think the one that bugged me the most was him turning to his children and saying "I wouldn't want to be you guys"...In my opinion it was petty, unmoving, unfocused and uninspired. He spent much of the time "disparaging people who had little to do with his career, like Jeff Van Gundy and Bryon Russell. He also ignored people who had so much to do with it, like his personal trainer, Tim Grover.

"This had been a moving and inspirational night for the NBA – one of its best ceremonies ever – and five minutes into Jordan’s speech it began to spiral into something else. Something unworthy of Jordan’s stature, something beneath him."

Adrian Wojnarowski, columnist for Yahoo Sports

See for yourself -



Michael wasn't alone in the hissy fit weekend. Serena proceeded to act a STRAIGHT FOOL when a line judge pissed her off as well. Whether she was right or wrong to be upset, I'm sure she is embarrassed today for her behavior and if not well...hmmmm. My kids missed it. I'm glad. She is a little lighter in the pocket with a $10K fine. We always support Serena but we must always remember the kids are watching.



Let's continue down our path of outbursts to the worst of all. Mr. "the world is mine and I'm a talented butthole" Kanye West.



JUST CLASSLESS!!! In the words of someone else "it takes a village to raise a child.
Apparently, Kanye's village has failed him. He obviously doesn't have a real friend in the world." Looking back, Taylor looked humiliated. I felt humiliated for her. I didn't expect Taylor to win that award, and I'm not upset about Kanye's opinion. However, bum-rushing the stage wasn't the appropriate time and place to express his disagreement. Not only was Kanye's approach disrespectful, it was directed towards a teenage girl, actually. I can only imagine how her family feels. I'm sure he would like to have a talk to Kanye. I'm not related to her, and I'd like to have a talk with him. Furthermore, aside from the fact that Taylor Swift is a top-selling artist, who has revolutionized teen country pop, she did not have any competition in this category as her competitors Beyonce, Lady GaGa, Pink, and Kelly Clarkson split the pop vote. Taylor had to get 100 percent of the country vote, plus some of the pop vote as well. It's simple math that even a "College Dropout" should be able to figure out.

However, Miss BEY saves the day!!! Don't you love her!!!! I truly do. GO BEY! For some reason when I watch it I get tears in my eyes right down to the fact that Beyonce never said another word even while hugging her. Beyonce's eyes said it all.

Hope you all had a great weekend!

(edited to add Lil Mama's one hit wonder get on my nerves on "america's best dance crew, lil' bow wow in drag lookin butt hoppin her DRUNK butt on stage during the performance of Jay-Z and Alicia Keys at the VMA's...WOW!) Forward to the 5:20 mark of this video for another weekend dingbat.

Just some ramblings

It's Friday and I"m off to the wind! On my way to the gym. No work in an office today but LOTS TO DO! Today is the big day! I've been waiting to take these braids down forever. I even had the nerve to go get the front and back done so I could keep them longer, or should I say, keep from having to take them down longer...and now I am official that woman that other black woman talk about. "ooohhh look at them raggedy braids, girl they raising up off her poor head...she need to take them down!" Yes, the growth is so long in the middle it's working my scalp, my ponytail clip and my nails! Just nasty. I figure it'll talk about 4 hours to take it down, then I'm off to Friday night FOOTBALL! My boys don't play tonight because the team they are playing doesn't have stadium lights so we play Saturday instead but what's a Friday night without football. So we are off to see another local team. Our little Will is making is Varsity debut!

In other news, we are halfway through the quarter. My twin A is still struggling just a bit but we are working to get him into the light. He's a great kid and hard worker so although he's fighting right now he will be victorious in the classroom as well as the field. I can't go without giving props to my little CJ who is kicking butt in the classroom and his reading his coming along BEAUTIFULLY! His math facts are great too thanks to Around the World! CAYDEN CAYDEN CAYDEN What can I say. He has finally started Preschool! Little King ain't the king no more! He's been at school 3 days and been on timeout twice! He's excited about school and seems to be growing up already. Finally, my little twin B continues to amaze me with his willingness to want to be the best in everything. He is determined this year to
maintain is 4.0 status and so far he is achieving. I am so proud of him.

For now, that's about it! All things are well...love and hugs. It's the weekend!

Friday Fill - In

And...here we go!

1. That's a LOT OF WOMAN to be.

2. HEY BORIS KODJOE; I'm over here!

3. The possibilities include: a weave, a ponytail, more braids, go natural.

4. BREAKFAST FOR DINNER is one of my favorite cool day recipes.

5. How will you know IF YOU NEVER TRY.

6. SEX and a stormy sky.

7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to FRIDAY FOOTBALL WITH THE FAMILY, tomorrow my plans include SATURDAY FOOTBALL WITH THE FAM and Sunday, I want to GET A GOOD WORD FROM THE LORD, RELAX AT HOME AND MAKE A NICE DINNER!

Blue Pill or Red Pill

The Blue Pill would make me feel good all day. The Red Pill would put me to sleep all day and I can try this again in the morning.
Sometimes no matter how much you try to suppress depression it uncovers it's ugly head. I think for me it's just part of my life's circle.I've been going through this since high school. I remember turning my 13inch tv sideways so I could lay down and watch tv for days without moving. Something I'm still struggling with and always dealing with and do my best to fight. I believe in the last few months I've worked on ways to minimize some of my "mood-swings" if you will, but often times it's in defeat.I plaster a smile on my face and say "I'm good". Don't ask me twice. I may breakdown. If I am able to hold it off last week then it festers until this week. If I don't just go ahead and hide under the covers this morning then I will tomorrow morning. It's this nasty little circle that continues to torment my life at times.I'm actually proud of how I've done lately...however...its always lingering...somewhere in the "backfield".

Medication...NOT. Prayers...daily. Come on God. Give me a hand here. I know you gotta be pulling for me cause you've taken care of me too many times in my life. Daily weekly monthly hourly. What's up with this "psycho-crazy-ish" you keep letting me go through. Until he answers I kill it with kindness and think positivity. So in honor of my latest little war of the moods I would love to post just a few things that always make me feel great. These are not the givens like kisses from my family, the way Cayden smells after a shower, the way I feel when my kid sinks a clutch 3 or makes a touchdown, or when loved ones say"I love you". These are the things that make me feel good. Others my take for granted:

1. finishing a to-do list
2. the smell of vanilla anything
3. driving with no shoes on
4. listening to a great playlist on my ipod
5. honest appreciation for a job well done
6. the ride and thoughts each morning on my way to the gym
7. a great article on something that moves me
8. learning something new
9. Being able to do something no one else can do (I know, I'm a wierdo)
10.The next day pain from really working out the muscles
11.laughing (it's so hard to make me have a genuine laugh that it almost feels good to release a real one.
13.A new product (currently it's Carol's Daughter Lip Butter...OMG...my lips are in heaven)
12. ****so I lied*** as I got to the end of this Cayden came in and said "I love you mommy, more than the stars and the moon and the sky and the rainbows...and the chips (He loves chips). How can I resist that not making me feel good.

Have a great day. Time to hit it!

Obama's Speech will corrupt your children. NOT!

Just when you thought August recess couldn't get any wackier, conservative talk show hosts have stirred up a hornets' nest over President Obama's planned speech to the nation's schoolchildren next Tuesday. Obama plans to tout the value of education, encouraging kids to work hard and stay in school. But now, after working themselves up into a frenzy over death panels and Nazi symbols, conservative critics are inspiring a new wave of madness, calling the speech a political recruiting tool and propaganda. Florida Republican Chairman Jim Greer took an incredible leap of logic, saying that Obama intends to "indoctrinate America's children to his socialist agenda."

Newpaper reports all over the country are reporting that parents have called local schools requesting that their children be excused from viewing the speech or threatening to keep their kids home if the speech is shown in their classrooms. The Associated Press reports that school districts in six states - including the President's home state of Illinois - will refrain from showing the speech to students. Education Secretary Arne Duncan has written to teachers encouraging them to incorporate the speech into their lesson plans, using the president's message about hard work as a learning tool. But, in reaction to concerns from parents, some schools have decided that the speech won't be discussed at all in their classrooms, leaving it up to parents to decide whether the speech merits a conversation with adults.

All of this raises a few questions: What happened to classrooms as venues of learning, where ideas are explained and debated? Isn't it the exact job of schools to turn out young citizens who are informed and engaged enough to be full participants in political discourse? Since when should we be directing schools to shield children from history, politics, and culture? If a speech by the president of the United States isn't a legitimate device, then I'm not sure what is.

It's not unusual for presidents to visit schools when promoting policies, as George W. Bush did when he passed No Child Left Behind and wasn't he a brillant one. No problems with him entering the classroom. Ronald Reagan did the same for his "Just say No" policies. Mostly it's been considered a privilege and a learning opportunity to have an important political figure speak to children. Political candidates often use schools as a backdrop for their education pitches. And it won't be the first time teachers have turned on a TV so students can witness important political moments. Do you remember the day you watched the first teacher go up into space only to have the shuttle explode on tv. I watched this in my 6th grade Science class. The notion that letting children hear the president speak is worthy of fear seems ridiculous to America's democratic values. Moreover, the subject matter should be something that people of all political stripes agree on: education should be prized, working hard should be valued, and staying in school helps kids getting ahead. The question has been proposed about how todays young students could insure a graduation rate in 2020 of 80%, I believe the number was. And isn't that a horrible thing? We have this "horrible" president who would like to see 80% of our high school kids graduate! Oh the horror of it all! He wants kids to graduate! What will he want next? Young people to go to college?! Heaven forbid! We can't allow him to indoctrinate our children to become ed-u-ma-kated they might end up smarter than us! They might even grow up to become a Vice President who knows how to spell potato. Have we really gotten to a point where parents are afraid of having the president impart those messages? You will allow your child to download music that you can't even hear to follow through your child's ears while they are in your backseat, knowing you have no idea Lil' Wayne is really saying - or when is the last time you viewed every text that passed through your child's cellphone or myspace - but certain folks have the nerve to be intimidated by a stay in school speeches for your child? Are you serious? President Obama...please please please indoctrinate my children that SCHOOL IS THE WAY!!! It is what we as parent "preach" to them EVERYDAY!It's been one crazy summer.

Friday Fill - In

And...here we go!

1. I feel REFLECTIVE.

2. WORKING OUT is always fun.

3. Right now, I can hear these things: SPORTCENTER / THE FAN.

4. IT'S A THREE DAY WEEKEND and I'm glad I HAVE NO PLACE TO BE.

5. The last time I ATE YOGURT was WEDNESDAY.

6. IT'S HOT this Labor day weekend.

7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to CHILI'S, tomorrow my plans include WATCHING THE BOY'S SCRIMMAGE and Sunday, I want to GET SOME GOOD WORD FROM THE LORD AND MAKE A NICE DINNER FOR MY FAMILY!

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Jay-Z Rhapsody

Only true Jay-Z fans get it. EVERY COVER???? ARE YOU SERIOUS? I love you man! Just Sick!

Johnta Austin - Can't Help But Wait

My words are "wierd" right now....music always moves me...EMPHATICALLY YES!