Song in My Head

Thoughts

Since January 2009, I have been a freak...no nasty...not sexual freak. I mean just WIERD! Spazzed out, lonely, logging, searching...all the above:

My forms of inspiration were

A - Music
B - Liquor
C - Bubble Bath

mostly all three...I took so many Bubble Baths, with tequilla shots lined up on the tub with my ipod connected to the computer and still no rest...talking to myself out loud like "okay, maybe this, but maybe that, but I think this or that, oh I'm so screwed".

It's funny...been ages since I took a shot to clear my head, needed music to clear my head and its' been ages since there were bubbles in the tub...and still...peace.

Waiting for Superman

This movie breaks my heart. Each time I see the trailer it's like the first time. I've been waiting to see it since it's inception. It's finally here. Can't wait to see it this Saturday. John Legend will host it in our itty bitty town.

FRIDAY STUFF

So Happy It's Friday - GAME NIGHT...Let's see...Likes/Dislikes

LIKES
skittles - diggin them right now, especially red and yellow
looking forward to seeing the TOWN
Marvin Sapp's children reading a poem and their mother's funeral
morning kisses
Talapia with Avocado
perfect weather
Letting go....and Letting God
shorts and tank tops around the house
reading between lines
that feeling I feel right now...so much joy

DISLIKES
having to share my skittles with little grubby hand boys

people who come without calling

little dogs being carried around like babies...I know, I shouldn't care but it bugs me
the soreness of taking a few days off from the gym (yeeooouch!)
being the last to know something
over-thinking
devilish ways
admitting that i like this song or this one
feeling sleepy so early in the evening
nightmares from eating to late

All For Love...

Love is the most beautiful gift that God affords humanity this side of heaven. It can be tangibly seen, touched, and affect every area of your life…many times without your permission. Have you ever been mentally, emotionally, and spiritually in sync with another human being and are immediately (if only momentarily) able to understand why God surrounds you with people so unlike but identical to yourself? To be one of two hearts in a consistent exchange of positive regard and unconditional care. And it is beautiful because it feels right and perfect…

But what of those moments where things have gotten so out of control that we look around and wonder how Love became a catalyst for such unrest and pain? What is the answer when men overstep their commitment barriers or when a woman abuses her lover’s trust? What of the victims of gossip, manipulation, self-pity, unselfishness and one-sided relationships? The heart that always gives but never receives anything in return…where can love be naturally applied? I am a living, breathing testimony that Jesus is the source for all healing when you’ve suffered heartache at the hands of those you love. He is truly all you need. When all is right with him, all will be right with you and those you love. There is no perfect love. Only perfect peace and joy.
Even before the Fall, God declared that it’s “incomplete” that man is alone. Adam had God all to himself…and even still he was incomplete. Not quite finished. Loved and the most precious part of His creation, but still lacking an important element: a companion. Someone like him, but unique enough to exist as a separate person. Why did God take out a part of an incomplete man (his rib) to make him complete?

I’m thinking that forgiveness and trust is not only for the wounded heart, nor for the transgressor, but for the bond broken. For the good of us all, and not just individuals. The moment I become especially distant from the hearts that divinely pump life around me, the more the voice of my own self-doubt, self-interest and self-need drowns out the gentle whisper of our Lord. Love can be horrible. Confusing sometimes. And the ultimate test of our lives designed to connect us deeper and stronger to each other, and ultimately, to God the Father. Only the strong and obedient shall survive and it takes HIM to shake us hard sometimes to know what it is truly about. Greatness often comes on the brink of destruction. So glad to finally know.

Do You Know This Face?

This is the composite sketch the Vancouver Police Department released after Bethany Storro said she was attacked by a black woman. But she doesn't exist. The Bethany Scorro (BS) situation is a another example of when the media rushes to judgment. She was "supposedly" attacked a few weeks ago in a subway in which a "black woman" through acid in her eyes.  "Fortunately", it was 7:30pm in the evening and she was "lucky" enough to be wearing sunglasses and only a portion of her lower and nose was burned.

In Vancouver several black women were questioned and interrogated who matched the description of the alleged attacker before they discovered Storro made it up.  Sociopaths and under cover racists have a tendency to want to believe that all crime is done by African-Americans.

The Columbian newspaper in northwest Washington wrote that plenty of people have a right to be upset with Storro, including "Vancouver's African-Americans, who are troubled that Storro described the woman who supposedly attacked her as black. For weeks the Vancouver news paper had included Storro's description of her alleged attacker as a "black woman," as did scores of other news organizations, including this one.

Again, as with so many others society bought her story, hook, line and sinker and of course the criminal this woman dreamed up was black.

In 1994, Susan Smith, a 23-year-old white woman, drowned her two young sons by driving her car into John D. Long Lake in Union, S.C. For over a week, she claimed a black man had hijacked her car, and she went on national television to beg the unidentified black man -- who did not exist -- to return her children unharmed. This is yet another cautionary tale for journalists, for law enforcement people, for judges and prosecutors, for people in the medical field who take care of victims.  All of us can learn some important lessons about rushing to judgment even when the evidence "appears" to be overwhelming.

Years before, in 1989, Charles Stuart, who was again white, claimed a black man had shot and killed his pregnant wife, Carol, during an armed robbery in the Boston neighborhood of Mission Hill. Stuart was severely wounded as well. Months later, it was discovered that Stuart was the killer, but not before police shook down and interrogated nearly every black man in Mission Hill and had arrested William Bennett, a black man, in connection with the crime. Bennett was later cleared, but the case inflamed already tense racial relations in Boston.  Stuart committed suicide in 1990.

I'm not sure what the answer is because when people have terrible things happen to them, we generally believe them but it's incredibly frustrating that often times when something bad happens on the news to a white person blacks say "yeah right" and others say "you see!"

On NBC's "Today" show this morning, Schuman said Storro is "very remorseful" but could face criminal charges for lying about the incident to the police and for prompting an "incredibly expensive" investigation that "wasted a lot of valuable resources."

Really? Community Service again huh? I certainly hope not.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LOVE

Wishing a Special Birthday to my incredible husband...Happy Birthday Superman!

Some Sports Thoughts - Gotta Ride with Vick Eagles...You KNOW IT!

So I haven't done my sports thoughts in a while and with football season in full gear...not to mention I just beat daddy week 1 in fantasy I thought I'd better get to it. Besides the whole hoochie sports reporter, San Bruno PG&E blow up and Obama being on tv every other day is bringing me down...I decided to go VICK BABY!

It’s Michael Vick we’re talking about here. So nothing is ever as simple as it seems.


The moment he runs well, he can’t pass. The minute he passes with accuracy, he gets happy and forgets he needs to run. Caught in between are the electrifying heroics, accentuated by mesmerizing speed – the kind that has everyone baffled as to why he is not a starting quarterback for the Philadelphia Eagles – that leaves us all transfixed and aching for more. Not to mention he BLEW IT on Pros vs. Joes. That is…right up until the moment the final horn sounds and you find yourself saying, “Damn! He lost.”

Again, it’s Michael Vick we’re talking about here.

But in the aftermath of the Eagles 27-20 loss to Green Bay on Sunday, Vick was the talk of the town. He was the guy who energized the Eagles, who made their offense resemble something other than offensive. He was the guy who guided the Eagles to 17 points and actually forced the Packers to break a sweat. And if there’s anyone who said his immediate ascension on their depth chart didn’t cross their minds, they’re either lying, smoking something or too much of an animal lover to aim any degree of objectivity in Vick’s direction.

Vick’s promotion to starting quarterback appears inevitable, folks. If not next week, then right around the time Eagles fans start panicking about their season being in jeopardy, which essentially means around Week 5. If not because of a concussion suffered by Kevin Kolb, then it’ll be because of a performance that resembles someone suffering from a concussion.

At least it seems as if things will be this way after one game.

Vick had some awful moments during the preseason. This was a follow-up to last season when he passed for a grand total of 86 yards. His teammates appeared more infatuated with Kolb.

On Sunday, Vick was….Vick at his best. He passed for 175 yards, completing 66 percent of his passes, and registered a 101.9 passer rating. He ran for an additional 103 yards. He scampered for a 31-yard run that put the Eagles in position for one touchdown and threw for another 17-yard TD.


Reid said in a quote after the game that although Vick did a good job 'Kolb is our #1 quarterback", I mean, I get it.  He looked the part. Played the part, too, since he waited four seasons for his chance. He's a coach’s son has descent accuracy and they aren't going to drop that to highlight a new era that didn’t directly involve someone who’d spent 18 months in federal prison.

Now it's football season and none of that matters.

Victories matter, and Andy Reid has to figure out a way to come up with them. There’s no doubt his defense will capture a few for him, but at some point it’s about putting a playmaker in position to get the job done.

It’s nice to think a DeSean Jackson or Brent Celek is enough to fill that void. But they’ll need someone to throw them the football. Kolb can’t do it.

 Get it down Vick