6 Things

Continuing this whole "More about Nesha" Week thing. I'm enjoying it.

6.Things.

...that you may or may not know about me...

6. I love to laugh.(but I don't often)
I wish I did it more often. Any type of humor is okay with me...even the style that is controversial. Humor is only inappropriate within the context of its environment. (ie: You don't make racist jokes at an NAACP council meeting.) As for my own sense of humor, I suck. I'm corny. I cause more awkward silences/pauses more than I make people laugh. But yet, I try. Because I struggle with taking things, most of all myself, too seriously...

5. Tradition annoys me.
I believe that tradition is good for foundation's sake, but only that. If we never seek to build on that foundation, then we will depreciate the value of what is being built. I will esteem the ancient, but I will also strive to move forward; embracing change.

4. I am insightful.
I say this not in boast, because this is a blessing and a curse. Growing up, I knew all about my parents problems, because I felt stress in my home sometimes. I can tell when somethings wrong with people I barely know. Sometimes, I sense dishonesty and "evil". I have "bad feelings" that have usually been correct. At times I listen to this insight, and there are times when I ignore them. But I know that is why I'm more cautious than most.

3. I love my kids friends.
My boys don't have friends that I don't love and think of as my own. The big boys may have some friends with issues but I love them just the same. There are many things that are trying to kill the potential of our children, and no one seems to sense the unspoken urgency that I do to be a mentor to them at all costs. Plus, one of the highest privileges a woman can have is to be a mother that other children like (in my opinion).

2. I think...literally...all day.
I heard from a teacher that human beings use only 25-30% of their total brain mass. I think I use up to 45%. Ha. And not necessarily on intellect...but on my thoughts. I caught myself earlier thinking about 3 different things at once, and when I forced myself to think about nothing, it actually led to me thinking about different conversations I'd had with people about thinking too much. And so on, and so on....hahah. So yeah, I think too much. ::smirking::

1. Love is my highest & deepest desire.
In every form and fashion. I want to experience it in all the ways it was created to be. If I can't have it deep and passionately, I don't want it at all. I realize that may be unrealistic. I don't care. I love God.I love my family. I love my parents, I love my sisters, I love my friends. Everyone wants love, I understand this but I need to know I am loved without condition. I need to feel that. It's like breath to me.

A Woman Should Have

I've loved this poem for song long. It means so much now to go back and re-read. It remeinds me how far I've come and how many miles I have yet to still go....



A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ....Enough money within her control to move out And rent a place of her own even if she never wants to or needs to...
A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ....Something perfect to wear if the employer or date of her dreams wants to See Her in an hour...
A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...A youth she's content to leave behind....
A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ....A past juicy enough that she's looking forward to retelling it in her Old Age....
A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE .A set of screwdrivers, a cordless drill, and a black lace bra...
A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ....One friend who always makes her laugh...And one Who lets her cry...
A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ....A good piece of furniture not previously owned by anyone else in her Family...
A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ....Eight matching plates, wine glasses with stems, And a recipe for a meal that will make her guests feel Honored...
A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ....A feeling of control over her destiny...
EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...How to fall in love without losing herself..
EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...HOW TO QUIT A JOB, BREAK UP WITH A LOVER, AND CONFRONT A FRIEND WITHOUT RUINING THE FRIENDSHIP...
EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...When to try harder...And WHEN TO WALK AWAY...
EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW... That she can't change the length of her calves, The width of her hips, or the nature of her parents..
EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...That her childhood may not have been perfect...But it's over...
EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...What she would and wouldn't do for love or more...
EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...How to live alone...Even if she doesn't like it...
EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...Whom she can trust, Whom she can't, And why she shouldn't take it personally...
EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...Where to go...Be it to her best friend's kitchen table...Or a charming inn in the woods...When her soul needs soothing...
EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...What she can and can't accomplish in a day...A month...And a year...


--by Pamela Redmond Satran

ABC's of ME

The ABCs of Me

A: Age - 36
B: Bed Size - Cal King
C: Chore you hate - Scrubbing the Stove
D: Dad's name - Roy
E: Essential start your day item - Check the Blackberry
F: Favorite color - Green
G: Gold or Silver - Silver.
H: Height - 5'7"
I: Instruments you play - The text keys
J: Job title - Trainer.
K: Kid(s) - 4
L: Living arrangements - house in the burbs
M: Mom's name - Jessie.
N: Nickname - Nesha.
O: Overnight hospital stay - Five times.
P: Pet peeve -bad drivers.
Q: Quote from a movie -"I'll shut up, been when he leave, I be talking again"
R: Right or left handed - Right
S: Siblings - 2 sisters.
T: Time you wake up - 5:30.
U: Underwear - not if i can get away with it
V: Vegetable you dislike -Eggplant.
X: X-rays you've had - shoulders and back.
Y: Yummy food you make - gumbo, spaghetti
Z: Zoo animals you like -monkeys

2 Important Things to Remember

Just thinking about some STUFF (Stuff explains a lot) and to very important things to remember.

Don't ever make decisions when you are ANGRY
Don't ever make promises when you are HAPPY

Remember these two things and you'll save yourself a lot of grief.

My Bucket List

Couple things I want to do before I hit 40...just sayin

Get a passport
Take a cruise
Finish my novel
See Jay Z in concert
Walk the stage
Get BI
Learn a foreign language enough to fluently speak it
See a Broadway show, on Broadway in NYC!
Eat a meal on Bourbon Street
Take a girls' get a way
Dress like a grown-up
Get a professional facial
Go hiking
Go Vegan for a month
Save $10000
Publish a poem in a lit journal
Write a short script
Know what defines my happiness
love hard and without interruption
Run a marathon
Have an 800 credit score
Cook More (eat less fast food)
Get a meaningful tattoo
Take professional pictures before I dont care
Take a cooking class
Do an all day spa treatment
Take better care of my skin & hair
Find a side hustle
Travel much more
Have more fun!!

The #'s List. (2010 Version)

10 Things you wish you could say to ten different people:

1. "You know what? Man up, already..."
2. "You may be good at a lot of things, but there is one thing that you do extremely well...and that's hurt my feelings."
3. "Please get a life?"
4. "Thank you. I appreciate you more than you'll ever know."
5. "I know you think you love him but he's my baby and if you hurt him, I'll hurt you."
6. "Thank you for lending an ear...on top of everything else. I love you."
7. "You are growing into a beautiful young woman that I love more and more. I hope you're in my life always."
8. "Thank you for just being there. I love you no matter how far a part we are."
9. "Please try and call me when you are happy, not just when you have drama."
10. "I'm so very proud of you."

9 Things about yourself:
1. I adore anything Carol's Daughter.
2. I enjoy making others happy.
3. Great perfumes are my secret fetish.
4. I want to create just one original piece of music.
5. I love great conversation.
6. I enjoy rummaging through old bookstores.
7. My ipod
8. Make up isn't a necessity for me but I must have carmex or lip balm.
9. I adoring learning new things.

8 Ways to win my heart*:
1. Genuinely love family.
2. Possess people-smarts.
3. Know 70s R&B.
4. Love noticing the small things.
5. Read my blog and be able to tell me something that caught you attention.
6. Share you.
7. Say something politically incorrect with conviction.
8. Give others hope.
* this means you too (friends, family, and aquaintances)

7 Things that cross my mind a lot:
1. My parent's health.
2. My relationship/friendship.
3. My Future.
4. Poetry/writing
5. Money
6. school
7. The Future of my boys

6 Things I do before I go to sleep:
1. Eat a yogurt or banana.
2. Bathe/change into pjs.
3. Read or Write.
4. Check email/FB/Blogs
5. Lotion ritual.
6. Listen to music.

5 Foods I could eat forever:
1. Yoplait Yogurt
2. Reeses Peanut Butter Cups
3. Sweet Tea
4. Perfect sundried handchecked dirt (leave my Pica alone)
5. Game Nachos (only with jalepenos)

4 Things I am wearing right now:
1. shorts that say "Cheer" on the butt
2. hot pink wifebeater
3. fluffy socks
4. Halle Berry Perfume

3 Songs that fit my life perfectly(right now):
1. Zoom - Commodores
2. He saw the best in me - Marvin Sapp
3. The Miseducation of Lauryn Hill - Lauryn Hill

2 Things I want to do before I die:
1. Feel as if I've accomplished what I set out to do.
2. Write a best-seller.

1 Confession:
I really want to get a tattoo right now. I've been thinking about it for days but as in past years when this feeling as come up I don't know what I want to get, I just know I want it where my mommy and daddy will never have to see it.

What I know so far...

...new things are headed my way. (I.e. life and I'll leave it at that) So, I wanted to do a bit of reflecting to see what I've learned in this current season I'm in...


1. Get over it.
[I know the size of the hurt can depend on the timing, but I've realized that pain & offense are two different things. Getting your ego bruised and taking a shot to the heart aren't the same. And while healing is needed for pain, an offense needs only to be released.] I'm working on this.


2. Practice wisdom with honesty.
[The "honesty" trait is not an excuse to be rude. Hurting someone's feelings should be a risk only when speaking of things that matter]


3. Be real, with yourself first.
[This is harder than it sounds. But it is a prerequisite for being real with others. The more you accept and love yourself, the more likely you are to be transparent and open to others.]


4. Reserve something for yourself.
[This is a struggle for me, because I love to share what I write and give my gifts to bless others. However, it is healthy to have some things that are for you. Just you.]


5. Practice saying, "I don't know.".
[The more we allow ourselves NOT to know, the better we are, the smaller we feel, and the bigger the size of our dreams and pursuits.]


6. Be Content.
[Why else did those bankers jump off of buildings during the Great Depression of the late 1920's and 30's?]


7. Watch cartoons.
[Try it...]


8. Read books and write hand-written letters.
[Trust me...]


9. Remember that Love has a definite Source.
[This eliminates worry, desperation, and lonliness in those Valley moments..]


and


10. Get closure where needed & let go of emotional baggage

My Words - Simply Put

Job 32:18-22

18 For I am full of words,
and the spirit within me compels me;

19 inside I am like bottled-up wine,
like new wineskins ready to burst.

20 I must speak and find relief;
I must open my lips and reply.

21 I will show partiality to no one,
nor will I flatter any man;

22 for if I were skilled in flattery,
my Maker would soon take me away.