Ten Things I am Grateful for

I am still standing

I fear no man, but God

Mom and Dad

Sons are developing into a much-needed mixture of book/street smarts

Love

An emotionally-connected relationship

The burning desire to make better decisions for myself

Real friends

The brain to talk the talk, the heart to walk the walk

Ability to forgive those who have used me, cause they themselves are being used by others

Autumn Likes and Dislikes

LIKES

• bowl of homemade soup
• holidays, birthdays
• football, in full effect
• basketball
• no humidity: smell of cool, crisp, fresh air
• gloriously, colorful leaves on trees
• love the love we are making
• soon as I get home
• sleep better

DISLIKES

• imminent struggle to leave bed in the morning 
• Black Friday
• Halloween
• gets darker earlier
• cold rain
• skyrocketed gas bills
• trees slowly losing weight
• winter season quietly awaits

Thinking

Have you ever noticed, right before a challenge, we begin to breath deep, sometimes inhaling and those butterflies form in your stomache? Maybe in a subconscious attempt to gather one's mind beforehand and exhale whatever antagonist anxiesties that may exist.  Perhaps, to just for a moment brace ourselves for the full anticipation of what is coming and what must be done.  Funny thing is have you also noticed once the task is completed, the same deep breath happens? This must be the signal of a much-needed sigh of relief that it is complete.  In this exhale, it shows the importance of the task....the expel.



The beginning and the end of a personal journey are filled with deep breaths, throughout so many experiences lately I have been breathing deeply.


To a fault, I am a habitual thinker. I process every movement, every thought, every possible outcome, I throughly process a variety of thought more than the average person. Yes, it bodes well in certain areas such as my writing, my education, and sometimes my spirtuality...it rarely translates substanially in my everyday life. Throughout life I have over-analyzed everything.  Once you add this truth to the fact that I am a Capricorn, intense, black and white, zealous, one might see how easily it is for me to dwell on things and hold myself back from some many things in life. Often to the point in which I am without realization.
I guess this is like breathing, I suppose. It should be a natural act, something that we cannot live without. It hardly takes responsibility for our well-being, maintaining faith as well as perspective. All the while protecting the heart, navigating my endlessly thoughtful mind and avoid placing too much emphasis on too many insignficant matters.  So, nowadays amid the tendency to become too stressed over the inconveniences of life, I am doing my best to reach deep within myself and hold steadfast to my protagonist anchor in this ever changing world.

My Favorites of 2012

In my opinion there is money and there is love, two of the things that make this world go around, but in my humble opinion, music just does it for me.  I don't believe a single day has gone by in my life that I haven't listened to a song that touched my soul. Music feeds my soul in every way. It speaks for me when I don't have the words. Want to know how I feel? Ask me what I'm listening too. It can speed me up or slow me down. Many times it just simply sets my mood. I wanted to post my absolute favorite songs of 2012.


Daughters- Nas
Great is your Mercy - Donnie McClurkin
Bye Bye Love - Nas
B*tch, don't kill my vibe - Kendrick Lamar
Another Round - Chris Brown
Wicked Games - The Weeknd
Fear - Drake
I Don't Like - Chief Keef
My Moment - Meek Mill
Mr Wrong - Mary J. Blige
Believe in Us - Mint Condition